Today

Well, we didn't get to hold Tucker today. We got to the hospital and were kind of heart broken to see that they had put him back on the Jet ventilator. I guess they only had him on the conventional ventilator for an hour, they had to keep going up on the pressures and they were afraid to keep raising them because his left lung could become over expanded again. They did an x-ray and a blood gas to make sure that this little experiment didn't make his lungs worse, and it didn't so they're very happy about that. They had to try, and he's just not ready yet. The doctor did tell us that he was really surprised at how much they're able to feed him, usually babies or grown ups for that matter who are as sick as he is won't eat...so that's great to know! I was really sad, I was so looking forward to holding him, it just feels like forever since I've held him...and it's starting to feel like it might be forever until I can again. I'm so sad for him, I know how hard he's trying, and I just wish they could do more or I could do something to help get him off of the ventilator completely. It doesn't help that I'm exhausted, everything seems to be multiplied when I'm sleepy. They're talking about taking his broviak tube out, which is what was giving him his lipids and proteins, and since he's not getting them anymore it would be better to get all of his lines out, less chances of infections that way. Once they stop his anti-biotic they'll really be trying to get the tube out. That would be great, one less thing to worry about, and one less thing he'll get tangled up in. Anyways, that's todays update...maybe in a couple weeks...we'll just have to see. Thanks for all your support and comments!! I'll let you know more when I hear it!!